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Name: Ellie
Birthday: 12/12/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Sing KTV, shopping, watch movies, play badminton/volleyball, skating, hang out with friends, etc~
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
7/25/2003
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| I'm feeling EXHAUSTED!!!! So tired today.... =(
Went to Spanish Bank for BBQ this morning. Stupid Alex.... He told me to get there at 10, and I got there at like 11:30, but he got there at 12:30 =_____+ And I already told him I had to leave at 1:30 since I got work at 2..... Wasted my two hours sleep, and I slept at 4am last night = =;;; Anywayz... I didn't know any of his friends... except some I've seen before. So I was waiting for Kaye and Geoff to arrive. It got so much better after Kaye and Geoff arrived =D We went down to the beach and read magazines..... LOL =PPP It was fun haha! Spanish Bank is so pretty!!! The last time I went there was when Min and I just started dating @@ It was nice to go there again =) It was hot, but by the water was still pretty damn cold! I wanted to hang out under the sun longer, so I went to work almost an hour later. Got yelled by Tom for a bit, but the whole store wasn't even busy.......... It was like dead.... Everyone was out there enjoying the sunshine. Oh wellz... it's partly my fault, I guess. I was working with Gladys....... ORZ Hate working with her so much..... And it was pretty dead at work today, I got nothing to say to her ^^;; After I got off work, Andy came, and we took a walk to English Bay. Two beaches in a day, heh? =D It was nice to take a walk other than clubbing every god damn week haha~ But right now I'm freaking exhausted and still got work tomorrow =( I'm so soooo tired.... Need to work on my homework tomorrow =( | | |
| Xanga.....
Hello again =)
Sigh
Shit happened again on Friday night
This time it went down really bad....
Deactivated my facebook account, and gonna keep it that way for a while...
I really wish I could take it back, but I can't....
I was really really stupid =(
It was very embarrassing.......
And I feel ashamed of myself for being a crazy fool
I hate who I am now
Maybe I still seem the same, but I know it myself that I'm different than before
I'm gonna try to go back to my old self
No more alcohol.....
Alcohol scares me now, and almost every time I go out, I order a drink
I thought alcohol could help me get through my problems temporally, which it could, but the problems are still there
And I wake up everyday questioning myself the same question over and over again
I'm gonna quit alcohol and stay the hell away from clubs
Clubbing experiences totally changed me
It changed my lifestyle, personality, my thinking, relationship, and friendship
Piece of advice to everyone... Stay away from clubs.....
I see the ugliness at clubs...
The way how guys pick up girls, how girls get fucked up drunk, cat fights... etc
It actually is really sickening....
And I really need to stay away from it for a while
Sigh......
I know I'm not allowed to miss him, but I do miss him
I'm so dumb..... =( | | |
| Damn... I hate working so much now = =;; You think it's easy to work at a coffee shop? HELL NO!!! -_-;; Sometimes you have to put up with some much crap with costumers... and the worst part is... YOU HAVE TO PUT UP SO MUCH CRAP WITH YOUR COWORKERS!!! =__+ God seriously... some girls are just REALLY lazy = =;; And I hate telling people to do this and that cuz that is so bossy. But when new girls came to work and don't follow any of the rules or do her job, it's just unfair for us, the hard working people!!! God, new girls don't wear aprons or have their hair tied up during work, THEN WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO TIE UP MY HAIR??? WHY DO I HAVE TO WEAR APRON?? = =;; And when you tell them the correct way to do drinks or tell them to tie their hair up, they gave you the worst face = =;; Like seriously, I don't want to be bossing around people, telling them what to do. BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD DO. We're pretty much getting the same amount of money, why the hell do I have to work my ass off when people are slacking off so damn much at work = =;; It's just not fair... Like you'll just see there's a girl always moving around, but one girl just stands there doing nothing..... AND! People keep on coming to tell me who they don't want to work with when I'm making the schedule. SERIOUSLY, GROW UP!!! Work is not a fucking playground that you can choose who you want to play with!!! It's a fucking work place, and you don't get to choose -____-;; If anyone can choose, IT SHOULD BE ME = =;; I'm the one who's making the fucking schedule, so I should be able to choose the people who I like to work with. BUT GUESS WHAT? I have to put myself to work with people I don't like either. SO STOP COMING TO TELL ME OR GET MAD AT ME WHEN I PUT YOU WORK WITH SOMEONE YOU DON'T LIKE!!! It just really pisses me off. Before when Sheila was the manager, WHO DARES TO TELL HER THAT?? = =;; And if people give her attitude, then they're gone the next day. Seriously, Waves is such a messed up place now, and it's really REALLY pissing me off.
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| This is hard =(
Haven't had any communication contact with him for five days straight
No MSN
No facebook msg
No phone call
No meeting
No email
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING
This is the first time in three years that we haven't had any communication contact for five consecutive days
It's so hard to get used to it
How many more days, weeks, months are supposed to come....?
I'm having a collapse soon....
I can feel it in my bones
I miss him......... I miss him so much.......
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| Damn it
Only the second day.....
And I can feel tears building up inside of me already.....
I really need to BE STRONG!!!
Happy Thanksgiving, everyone~
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